The good news is, I just scheduled my ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby!
The bad news is, I have to wait another month... I'm so impatient! I'm ready to start planning a name and decorating and nesting, but I have to wait. Oh well, just praying that he/she is healthy!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
C is for Change.
Let's face it, change is a part of life.
Now let's face the fact that I'm not that great at dealing with it. Even when the change is small and necessary, when I know that it is a good change, it is tough for me. Like right now, there are some changes I need to make at work. I've been doing things the same way for the past three years, and now it's time to update, and it's totally freaking me out.
As a teacher, I am a performer of sorts - every day I have sixty teenagers watching my every move, judging me, deciding whether what I've got to say is worth while or just a load of you-know-what. So when it comes to changing the way I teach, there's a lot of pressure to make it work and make it work fast.
I think what it comes down to is insecurity on my part. I like to feel like I'm in control of things, like I know what I'm doing and I'm great at it. But this new curriculum is not only new to the students - it's totally new to me! And so I don't feel like I've got it down. I don't feel like an expert anymore. I'm going to be learning along with the students, one step at a time, and that has me all stressed out.
But here's the silver lining: I am blessed with awesome students. Although they are watching, judging and deciding, for the most part I believe they are on my side. We are like a team, and I have a feeling that when things get tough, they will be there to help me through, just like I am there to help them through. And as much as I dread change, this is a comfort to me.
So, wish me luck!
Ready...
Set...
Go!
Now let's face the fact that I'm not that great at dealing with it. Even when the change is small and necessary, when I know that it is a good change, it is tough for me. Like right now, there are some changes I need to make at work. I've been doing things the same way for the past three years, and now it's time to update, and it's totally freaking me out.
As a teacher, I am a performer of sorts - every day I have sixty teenagers watching my every move, judging me, deciding whether what I've got to say is worth while or just a load of you-know-what. So when it comes to changing the way I teach, there's a lot of pressure to make it work and make it work fast.
I think what it comes down to is insecurity on my part. I like to feel like I'm in control of things, like I know what I'm doing and I'm great at it. But this new curriculum is not only new to the students - it's totally new to me! And so I don't feel like I've got it down. I don't feel like an expert anymore. I'm going to be learning along with the students, one step at a time, and that has me all stressed out.
But here's the silver lining: I am blessed with awesome students. Although they are watching, judging and deciding, for the most part I believe they are on my side. We are like a team, and I have a feeling that when things get tough, they will be there to help me through, just like I am there to help them through. And as much as I dread change, this is a comfort to me.
So, wish me luck!
Ready...
Set...
Go!
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